I love being a Mom…

I love being a mom more then anything else in this world. Tried to be the best mom I could be. I am far from perfect. Made many mistakes. I am human. I have lost my grown kids to the mistakes I made and their father made. I have tried to reach out, but grudges have engraved on my kids hearts. They can’t forgive me for leaving their dad. He died almost 2 years ago. The man they told me to leave, the man that picked on them till they cried, the man that never lifted a finger to help, is now their God..I try to make things right and I look like I’m blaming their dad. What happened to the kids that thought the world of me. Not many woman would have stayed with an alcoholic man for 24 years. Has anyone out there ever had this happen? I miss my world…